Goodbye

Everyday just like another
hapless and not knowing what to do!

Enough!! I have had it!!
time to pass on,
my oath is to be rude,
to every soul who betrays me,
I care less you are close or near.

I have pretended long enough,
been nice and caring,
done things I seldom wanted to do

Now, I have time only for myself.
Selfish I shall be
Self centered you may call
less do I care,
I no longer am the plastic puppet.

I cared, I reasoned out myself
less did it bother
seldom did it matter
and the fool I was, who counted every moment.

I am the world
I am myself
the ego has just levitated another face,
another face of the dark diamond.

Friend you bother me much,
a special place you held
close to the wonderful retrospection
my clock just unwound

Memories are lapsed
ambitions and goals to be met
say good bye and you shall be spared
lest, seldom do I care!

I shall regress to the foe you never had.
a beautiful day tomorrow, the new beginning
I just wish, I spare none.

Whats on your Mind ?!

There is plenty to worry about...
One less if you have an opinion on me !!!
dont cloud me with your thoughts...

The writer within...

I miss my self...
I miss the writer within me...
I feel shallow without words...   
                                                                  ~ 9/9/10 3:13PM

I miss him much and he came to me
I found him on a train ride home
Smiling, happy, content and bursting with energy
he was there my reflection on the window
                                                                  ~ 3/16/13 9:23PM


                                                                   

My Limit

everyone believes in what they want....
everyone does what they believe is right..
everything they do is right for someone dear to them...
everything right is not always good...
good for the most part is always better...
better is not always enough for many ...
enough is a limit I never set...

fish in a pond...

Fishing in a pond...
I came across one beautiful fish.....alone yet beautiful

lost in her memories and her own world...

I got a glimpse and have been ever enchanted...

little by little I was part of her world...

and now so close with so much to share
she is across 3 oceans in a beautiful pond

Spring is here...

what is guts when it decides to abscond you at the time of need.?
what is glory when a beautiful girl cannot be pursued?
and what is romance when a distance sight and a wry smile is all you have?
A little touch... a soft hand to hold...
a tender kiss and a wonderful hug is tat too much to ask !

She walks by every day,
but every zephyr is filled with her memories!
a girl- as a friend, a girl- as a sister or as a colleague
never do they need guts nor do they need humor ...
but when its her a distance is all I have!!

proximity is my fear when a beautiful girl is whom I desire!
I look to the skies and curse the stars,
glance at the cherry blossoms that steal my sight
the cool breeze flickers the last few bold words on my tongue
now i am left with an aching heart as my eyes trace her path...

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She: hello
She: therE?
He : haila

It began that way, a necessary conversation...
across the miles discussing things of the past
in a flattering manner it was delivered to a soul ever so beautiful and lovely..
one that brings him joy and happiness,
.
.
.

a tragedy awoke him months ago,
an unsettling day that was- while he waited for her bloody night to pass,
after hours which seemed longer than ever, he heard her voice
a not so surprised tone reassuring him everything was fine...

Fine it was- just for the night,
the next day the uneasiness trickled through him,
the call had changed things even before he knew,
never was a call so important...
never was a voice so convincing...
it just happened.... he cared now...

AN ego he had, the invisible coat seen only by few close to him
it argued about how humanly weak and emotional he had become,
Questioned him- how such small things could shake his roots?
it reassured him of the man he was and still could be...

but never was he at peace as much as now...
just a thought would bring a surprising smile
things moved on so did his ego
embracing her warmth across the oceans.

An occasional HI! and an occasional BYE!
she was on a run and so was he...
times moved, months passed uneventful
the winter set in, a new experience awaits
fresh excitement as the snow fell

Fewer hellos quicker byes
things dint change neither did thoughts cross his mind
the cold sending his soul search for the warmth
pure, beautiful and simple were the queries....